Much of this month, it’s been hard to move – from the bed to the yoga mat, the mat to the shower, the shower to my closet. My desire for warmth, comfort, and rest is strong. I am aching for spring. March is a weird month – full of hope and anticipation mixed with the struggle of wanting what we cannot have. This is my offering this week. Whatever weird place you find yourself in. This is my prayer.
Jesus, I sit here, aware of March and it’s holding pattern. It is cold. Spring is close yet feels so far away. This is a hard place. This edge. This place of waiting. This place of longing and emptiness. Flowers dare to show themselves while we stay cramped inside.
We cannot join them yet.
But, we will.
We need the wait if we want the Spring. We embrace this place: it’s imperfection, loneliness, sorrow, misunderstanding, and the chill. This too is important. Feed our hearts, our minds, our spirits in these places. You are not afraid of the wait. Teach us to wait. Teach us to walk as you walk. Teach us how to pay attention to the seasons and what they mean for us.
Teach us how to respond to the right time.
There is a time for everything,Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 The Message
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Teach us how to walk in your time. Show us how to be at peace with what we have, the work we’ve been given, and space we inhabit. Where can we create with you? Show us what is possible. Give us a glimmer of how things can be different.
In the meantime, show us what we need to pick up. Help us lay aside what is no longer ours. May we kiss and hug and heal and lift up those who need it. We admit that we walk around with eyes half-closed. Open our eyes to the needs around us.
We are overwhelmed. There is much overwhelming us. Show us what we can turn off and what needs our attention.
We cannot do everything.
Show us what we can do.
Show us how to make peace with and bless what we cannot accomplish.
Jesus, we love you. We may not love March. But, we can love You in it.
In Your name,